in 2025 i only tabled at kupocon in february, while incredibly sick. thankfully my friends sarah and kane who were travelling with me carried me through those 3 days! i got rejected from both mcm may and october which makes sense, but also made me question myself a lot. surprisingly, i'm not even saying this to belittle my abilities, it's more along the lines of wondering if conventions are for me, ultimately...
it's very difficult for me to create something with the express intent of selling it. it just feels wrong somehow. i'm not sure if i want to get over this or not bc maybe it would remove the joy of creating for me... i ultimately don't have an answer, and i'm sure it's something many artists living from prints struggle with.
i spent a lot of time that year sorting out our move, after my partner and i renting the same place for 7 years. i didn't have much energy to draw, but i focused on improving my compositions and level of finish! i also reopened commissions to try and get some income, since my last big production wrapped up in june so i've been jumping from small project to another, with no stability in sight.
